Ancient Inspirations (part one)
Let's start this RE-THINKING with inspirations why don't we... and, we'll start with the things I was most likely suffering from or, er... finding inspirational... a way back.... back prior to and at the zenith, the Halcyon Days of this Ancient Art Career.
...what makes little boys tick? More so, what makes little boy-wanna-be architects tick? Who turns on the kids growing up between the bay and the cow pastures? • Did I really like this shit, or did it simply suit my need to be a little different than the jocko-boys and future engineering students I knew I'd never be (couldn't be)?
...and, what of motives discovered at mere puberty? Over all these years... refined? rationalized? When she held your drawings up to the class, you felt... joy? pride? validation? • What drug released... why were you quietly embarrassed? Weren't you? I was...
When I was a boy... I wanted to be an architect, I wanted to build big things, buildings and stadiums (and really cool houses)... When that dream vanished (a long story of leaving one's ego in the hands of a child's mind)... I settled for Art School. I just walked in. Barely noticing how crushed those who were denied this... all they'd ever wanted... perhaps guilt, refined after all these years? Indeed... what of motives discovered at mere... puberty?
APR 28 ...I found, was given a new art studio last night. Only a few thousand sq ft larger, but... it's not rented, it's my own. Rather than tape... I can beat the living crap outta this puppy... We're settling in nicely :-)
...and don't for a moment think we didn't notice, more...
MAY 10 I've a sneaking suspicion we're going to be stuck on the topic of inspiration for some time yet. It would appear that this is the only thing that is driving this whole thing forward... for now.
The importance of looking earnest & heroic... (there are many more they will appear, maybe along with a woman or two)